Monday, June 13, 2011

Decisions, Decisions

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Do you ever let what others think of you control your every move? Do you care what others think? Do you assume what others are thinking without actually knowing if it's true? Do you go back and forth over something knowing that if it was ONLY what you wanted, you'd have no trouble deciding?

I'm struggling with this. I've struggled with this my whole life. I constantly worry about what others will think of me - my friends, my family, & even strangers. I don't want people to be disappointed in me or to talk about me negatively over something that I could control - something that I could do to make others happy and in turn, be miserable.

Yes, I have a specific issue in mind, but I'm not going to reveal it. I could. But then I'd probably lose friends - or at least I think I would, and I know people would talk.

I wish so badly that I was one of those people who could care less what others think. My husband is one of those people and we find it so difficult to understand each other when it comes to this stuff.

I didn't plan on publishing this. I just needed to vent. To get it all out on "paper." Then I realize, as I'm sitting here typing and wishing I didn't have such a heavy heart about this, that my answer is simple.


I need to just pray about this. How do I know what God's telling me to do? I struggle with this too. I know I will never truly know God's will until I read my Bible. Thanks Perry for teaching me this on Sunday. So that's what I'm going to do. I will read my Bible and I will pray. I will pray for peace and pray to make the best decision and pray that what other's think do not affect me as much as it does now.

I know that in the grand scheme of things the only person's opinion that matters is God's. If God is pleased, then I have made the right decision.

Ahhh. I needed to get that off my chest. Come back tomorrow for something much more light-hearted and happy!

"And whatever you ask in prayer, you will receive, if you have faith." - Matthew 21:22


Unknown said...

Hey Brittan, feel better, I used to be like that too and still can be once in a while. I wish it was as easy as just being confident, but I think there's a process that each person has to go through in order to overcome their insecurities, though everyone's different.

Feel better!

Unknown said...

It wasn't until I turned 40, a few years ago, that I finally quit worrying about what anyone else thinks. It's like you just grow up and realize that YOU are important. Self doubt is always waiting for a low point. Take care and go with your gut instinct!

Neely said...

Sweet girl, you are not alone in this. Everyone worries what people will think and if they say they dont they are lying! Just remember that its what you and your hubs do and whats important to yall that matter. Not anyone from the outside. No one can ever understand why you do something or dont or the way you do it. I am here for you! Let me know if you wanna talk :)

Ruth said...

Your are not the only one who goes through this. I struggle with it too. I just take it one day at a time and try my best not to scream at people let me make my own decisions.

Molly S. said...

Like everyone else are not the only one. Actually, I think everyone has a little bit of that in em'. As well, if people don't accept you for who you are they can go jump off a cliff :)Okay..kidding. But just keep your pretty little head up and everything will work out. God always has a plan. Always. Praying for you!

Raquel said...

Girl, i struggle with this too. I'm always worried about what people think of me and stuff. My boyfriend is the complete opposite though (like your husband), and hes always trying to encourage me and tell me that i shouldn't care what others think. He tells me "You are you and thats what matters most. And if people can't accept you for who you are, then F them!"
Keep your head up girl, everything will be better with a positive attitude! :)
Thanks for stopping by my blog too btw!

Amber said...

I know how you feel, I think we all get this way sometimes. You're not alone girl. It's important for you to do what makes you and your family happy and do what you think in your heart is the RIGHT thing to do. Whether or not people think it's right or not, it's up to YOU. I'll pray for you too friend! xoxo

Rachel said...

I could have written this! My husband and I go back and forth over stuff like this! He is the carefree, "I don't care what you think type" and well, I am not. I am learning, s-l-o-w-l-y that what matters is God's opinion, and as long as my family-myself, the girls, and John are happy, then it doesn't really matter. Chin up! You're not alone!

Heather said...

My husband and I are the exact same way. You are handling it the way you're supposed to. Prayer. I'll say a prayer for you too!

Anonymous said...

Amen Sista, don't worry about it, pray about it!! :) Carrie

Unknown said...

I hope that whatever you are going through gets easier! xoxo

Shayla said...

I am SO guilty of feeling just like you do in this post-more times than I would like to admit!

Plus, my husband is like yours!

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