Do you ever let what others think of you control your every move? Do you care what others think? Do you assume what others are thinking without actually knowing if it's true? Do you go back and forth over something knowing that if it was ONLY what you wanted, you'd have no trouble deciding?
I'm struggling with this. I've struggled with this my whole life. I constantly worry about what others will think of me - my friends, my family, & even strangers. I don't want people to be disappointed in me or to talk about me negatively over something that I could control - something that I could do to make others happy and in turn, be miserable.
Yes, I have a specific issue in mind, but I'm not going to reveal it. I could. But then I'd probably lose friends - or at least I think I would, and I know people would talk.
I wish so badly that I was one of those people who could care less what others think. My husband is one of those people and we find it so difficult to understand each other when it comes to this stuff.
I didn't plan on publishing this. I just needed to vent. To get it all out on "paper." Then I realize, as I'm sitting here typing and wishing I didn't have such a heavy heart about this, that my answer is simple.
I need to just pray about this. How do I know what God's telling me to do? I struggle with this too. I know I will never truly know God's will until I read my Bible. Thanks Perry for teaching me this on Sunday. So that's what I'm going to do. I will read my Bible and I will pray. I will pray for peace and pray to make the best decision and pray that what other's think do not affect me as much as it does now.
I know that in the grand scheme of things the only person's opinion that matters is God's. If God is pleased, then I have made the right decision.
Ahhh. I needed to get that off my chest. Come back tomorrow for something much more light-hearted and happy!
"And whatever you ask in prayer, you will receive, if you have faith." - Matthew 21:22