I can't sleep.
I've watched a movie. I've laid in bed and stared at the ceiling. I've listened to music.
So. It's this or another movie.
I don't even know what I want to say.
I guess really it's just that I don't think life is fair. Deep, right?
Pain is not fair. There is nothing I hate more than hurting people or seeing people hurt. I don't think this is uncommon. No one wants to see others in emotional or physical pain. I'd rather be hurt than to see someone else hurt. It's just that simple for me.
I miss Madi so much right now. I have this bunny that she made me at Build-A-Bear for my birthday a few years ago. I can press the bunny's hand and there is a recording of her saying "Happy Birthday mommy. I love you!" It's the sweetest thing. I've pressed it many times tonight. I can't wait to see her tomorrow. I'm putting my phone in the other room and giving her my undivided attention. I think we are all guilty of not giving people we are with our undivided attention with all the technology at our finger tips nowadays.
I miss the days of playing outside and watching Saturday morning cartoons without a care in the world.
Yes, I realize this post is all over the place. I'm not sorry.
Also, I'm late to the party but download the latest The Fray album. It's wonderful.
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